My Gown

That's right... My Gown... it has taken on personalized capitalization status.

I've been messaging back and forth with the dressmaker. This is making me soooo excited! I have to have My Gown! Now that I've been seriously thinking of having a wedding, I have been doing a ton of research and I think we could really do this!

As far as the dress, this is what I have found out: I can make payments on it and I don't have to be in any hurry about it, once the payments hit the halfway purchase amount she will begin making it. It will take between 3-4 months to create. I'll need to find a seamstress to take my measurements and once I have them I send them to her. Once I make my first payment, I can get sample swatches of the pink colors I am considering for free. I can also get the little bit of customization done. What I'm thinking of is little spaghetti-type straps because I don't know if I'd be comfortable in strapless.

The dressmaker, Karen, is amazing! She always responds promptly, answers my questions, and is incredibly nice! Her feedback is all positive, so that makes me feel even better about actually purchasing from her.

Now my only dilemma is this.... Do I show the picture of My Gown to my man? Part of me wants to keep it as a complete surprise because I would love to see the look on his face the moment he would first see me coming down the aisle. But... the other part of me wants to show it to him soooooooooooo bad! I know he would love it and I think if he imagines me in it it would make the idea of the wedding that much more realistic for him. I wouldn't show him what it looked like on me, just the picture of how it is now. I don't know though. I've been searching the internet for people's thoughts on this... is it bad luck? Is it an acceptable practice? I just don't know. But honestly, knowing me, I won't be able to hold out and I'll end up showing it to him because I am just so excited!!!

Could I possibly???....

So I'm sitting here daydreaming about weddings, going from website to website saving pictures of whatever may catch my eye, and I'm thinking... could we really have a wedding?! There are so many beautiful wedding items to be found on the 'net for inspiration! I could possibly do something...

I may actually be able to have the wedding that I've been dreaming of!

It would take lots of planning, budgeting, and patience. Hmmm.... 2 out of those 3 are things I am not good at. Budgeting? Ha! Patience? Double Ha! I may need to recruit some friends/family to help me here.

I'm a fairly crafty person when the mood strikes me, I could probably make most of what I would need; bouquets, centerpieces, decor, etc...., if, and this is a big if, I could slowly start buying the materials I would need. But then there is the food, the alcohol, the music, the photographer... how could I ever possibly afford all that?

I need a plan.

I need a budget.

I need a better paying job!

I need to slow down before I get myself in over my head before I know for sure if something like this is even possible!

But who knows, maybe this blog will go from wishful thinking to a wedding planning blog....

Dream Dress!!!!

OMG... I almost cried when I saw this dress!!!

This is the dress I want!!!!

I found it by doing a Google shopping search for "pink wedding gown". It isn't exactly the gown I had envisioned, or had picked out before, but it is just too beautiful to resist!!!

I MUST HAVE THIS GOWN!!!

According to the website, the gowns available are all custom-made, which in itself is amazing, but the prices are what really impressed me. I have no idea if there would be extra costs with the customizations, but I intend to find out!

This gown in particular is being sold on Etsy (gotta LOVE Etsy!!) and there is a link on the Etsy page to the shop with more gowns and info. I'm providing the link to both for future reference.

Esty Summer Wedding Dress

Bellina Bridal

I plan on contacting the shop to get more details and I will post more as I find out.

Wedding Hair. What to do??

My mind seems to be running all over the place with ideas for wedding plans. An outdoor wedding is the big thought I've been having lately, but I don't know enough about them to even begin to know how to plan one. So I'll keep that for another time after I've had more time to research things. Today is all about hairstyles!

I think I would like to wear my hair half up/half down with lots of cascading curls. I did a google image search for wedding hairstyles and I have no idea why but it seems like Carrie Underwood wears the hairstyle I imagine in quite a few of her pictures! I have a few different ideas in mind, but none is exact.




Whatever I would decide to do, I would most likely style it myself. My hair is naturally straight but it'll hold a decent curl when I do it myself. I'd want to have some tendrils around my face coming down over my shoulders. I have long hair, which I don't imagine cutting before I would get married but you never know, that is down to my waist. I almost definitely would do the "pouf" thing with my bangs. Hey, I'm only 5'1 so I need the added height, lol!

Should I wear a tiara? I don't know. On one hand I think it may have been waaayyyyy overdone, but on the other hand, I like the princess-y idea. Maybe flowers in my hair? Small ones, like in the last picture, seem like it would be very pretty and feminine. And I have no idea what to do about a veil. Is one required? How would I wear it? How would I make it work with the hairstyle I have in mind? Hmmm... Sounds like I have some more researching to do....

Non-Weddingish. If it wasn't a word before, it is now!

Today I'm feeling very non-weddingish.

I just want to get married!

I want to just look into his eyes and tell him how much I love him and promise to love and cherish him forever!

Hmmm... no one will have us sign a certificate afterward, but I think I'm going to tell him all that anyway as soon as I see him!

What Dreams May Come

I have spent a lot of time fantasizing about what my wedding would be like for the past, ohhhh, 2 years or so.

Well, honestly, it's been a lot longer than that. I'm turning 34 this year (but don't tell anyone that! As far as my age is concerned, I plan on staying 28 forever!). I have thought about, planned, and re-planned my wedding day since I was a little girl.

But in the past 2 years I have put more thought into it than ever.

Why?

Because I'm in LOVE!

(And while I'm being completely honest here, let me share a few other details about me. I've been married before. But I was young (18! Gah! What was I thinking??!!), ready to "grow up" and play house. I was also pregnant, and in the next few years had 3 other children. Yep. A total of 4 little (but not so little anymore) bundles of joy. Obviously things didn't work out, it's in the past, and I don't want to dwell on it.

Three and a half years ago I met, and fell in love with, the man of my dreams. I do believe he is my soul mate, my twin flame, the man that fate planned for me to grow old with. And although he would undoubtedly argue about it, he is perfect.

We live together now with a full house. The two of us, his son, my 3 daughters, and my dad. It's not always easy(especially with my father!), we have our ups and downs, but I wouldn't want to miss a minute of it!

We are not, however... technically, engaged yet. At least not in the sense of having a proposal, a ring, and a date set. But it's inevitable. We have discussed it and it's what we both want. There are just a few.... ahem.... responsibilities we have to deal with first.)

I don't care as much as I did as a little girl about having a big wedding. I would marry him in an instant with nothing but an official with a certificate. Standing in a shack wearing a t-shirt, jeans, and flip-flops, with no one in the world knowing that (with the exception of the birth of my children) the most monumental, exciting, amazing event was happening for me right that moment!

I would be lying though if I said didn't want a dream wedding with all the trimmings. Of course I want that! I'm a girlie girl! What girlie girl doesn't want to get all dressed up and feel like a princess for a day?

But there are more obstacles in our way than I think we could ever hurdle to make the dream wedding a reality. Not the least of which being that this will be a second wedding for both of us. It seems to be the general consensus of most people that second weddings should be handled "discreetly", no frills, no beautiful wedding gown, no party to celebrate the new couple. At least that's how most of my family feels. I don't think it's supposed to matter that neither of us had a "real" wedding our first times around.

It doesn't matter.

I will still imagine what my wedding day would be like. I will pick out my beautiful gown, my flowers, music, and the most amazing wedding cake! I will decide what colors I would use, who my bridemaids would be, and where the ceremony will take place. I will still smile every time I close my eyes and imagine the look on his face when he sees me for the first in my wedding gown.

It doesn't matter that it's something that will never happen. This is MY dream. That's something no one can take away.